...Why?

I have never really been a religious person. I have faith in some sort of higher-power I suppose. I do know I totally believe in Karma. I can't subscribe to the whole "ask for forgiveness so you don't go to hell" thing. I think that if you live your life in a way that makes sense to you, and treat people right, you will be alright.

With that being said... Why is it that the genuine GOOD and AMAZING people are ripped from this life so suddenly? The people who actually had something to contribute to society are the ones who die before their time. I don't want to hear that garbage of "it was their time" or "it's all part of the 'plan'". Fuck their time and fuck "the plan".

I want to know why the most vile and insufferable people live long, full lives? The human parasites get to live another day to ruin more lives. Nothing to offer, nothing positive to contribute to anything or anybody.

When my good friend passed away recently, I started really questioning everything, and being very angry that I could not find any answers that I felt really answered my question. All I got were generic, pacifying answers, and that's OK... but still frustrating. I want to scream until my throat is raw. I want to cry until I'm dehydrated (not sure if that's possible, but whatever). My grief is not only "for me", but it's for his wife, and his kids. As much as I am trying to make sense of it, I can only imagine what it must be like for them now, and later on in the future.

Why couldn't it have been some dirbag child molester, a rapist, a murderer, or some generally all around shitty, worthless person? Why did it have to be a MAN who was the model that all these little boys running around pretending to be men should look up to?

I know my question will never be answered and that I will always have a certain level of frustration about this subject, but I do feel a tiny bit better ranting about it... and that's what this blog is all about anyways.

Boyle, you are missed beyond belief. All I know is that I hope there is a Heaven. If there is, I know you're there. You'll always be alive in the hearts of those who cared about you.